As I’ve been checking out new bands, I come across The Strokes. I’ve heard of them, but never actually their music. So I turned on one song, I believe it was Under Cover of Darkness and their music just didn’t suit me first as It was ‘too happy’ for my sad existence. I’m all about music first, not words, so If I don’t hear electric guitars/drums playing the usual rock or metal sound It won’t get my attention. I turned them off, then after few days I came exhausted after school and decided to give them another chance. Downloaded the ‘Angels’ album and started listening to it. My reaction was still ‘the music’s too happy for me’, then I just started doing homework with Angels album in the background. whatever I’m doing music’s always playing. After a few songs I was starting to like it, and after 2 times of listening to the whole CD, I started to actually enjoy it.

Still I can’t say I’m absolutely crazy about them, their music is still to energetic and happy for me, but puts me in a pretty positive mood, so If that was the idea, then The Strokes passed this test.

Some of the songs I now find very good.

Life is simple in a moonlight
Call me back
Metabolism
Taken for a fool
Machu Piccu
You’re so right
Games
Under Cover Darkness

I needed some new music to listen to while I’m exercising, so I thought why not Kelly? From time to time chose some new artist to check out their stuff, and since Kelly was always on the mouths of my friends, and since I’ve seen my favorite youtube fan videos way to many times and it has been her songs that awesome guys combined with my favorite tv series, I said, I need music to jog anyway. Before this whole 1 week spent listening to mostly kelly, before that I only heard of these songs: addicted, maybe, never again, because of you, my life would suck without you, where is my heart, i do not hook up, breakaway, already gone, these hazel eyes, since you been gone. From 4 CD’s that I have listened to, the one I liked the most was definitely Breakaway. Let’s see which songs did I like. First 20 are the ones I really liked, and I added 5 plus.

1. Addicted

This song I knew long time ago, I sing it all the time, It’s one of the most important songs ever for me, unfortunately I can’t tell you why it’s that important.

It’s like you’re a drug
It’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
It’s like I’m stuck
It’s like I’m running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It’s like the only company I seek is misery all around
It’s like you’re a leech
Sucking the life from me
It’s like I can’t breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I’m never gonna quit you over time

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

It’s like I’m lost
It’s like I’m giving up slowly
It’s like you’re a ghost that’s haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I’ll never change my ways
If I don’t give you up now

I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

2. Because of you

Everyone knows, and loves this song, am I right?

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
‘Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes

I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

I watched you die, I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young, you should have known
Better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain

Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in

Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you, I am afraid

3. Maybe

I’m strong
But I break
I’m stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I’m hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I’m jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you’ll know and you’ll see just how sweet it can be
If you’ll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we’re at the same place
When we’re on the same road
When it’s okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses

I’m confusing as hell
I’m north and south
And I’ll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn’t meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I’ll try
Yeah I’m gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes

One day
We’ll meet again and you’ll need me, you’ll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you’ll love me, you’ll love me then

I don’t want to be tough
And I don’t want to be proud
I don’t need to be fixed and I certainly don’t need to be found
I’m not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won’t stop ’cause I believe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I’m thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might

4. Cry

If anyone asks,
I’ll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I’ll pretend that I don’t hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I’ll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I’m okay with it all
Act like there’s nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I’ll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I’ll pretend I’m okay with it all
Act like there’s nothing wrong

I’m talking in circles
I’m lying, they know it
Why won’t this just all go away

5. Where is your heart?

I don’t believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don’t expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God’s sake
Could you try?
I know that you’re true to me
You’re always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?
‘Cause I don’t really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That’s all I’m asking for
Oh, where is your heart?

I don’t understand
Your love is so cold
It’s always me that’s reaching out
For your hand
And I’ve always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin’ to the ground
A dreamer followin’ his dream

It seems so much is left unsaid
So much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it’s just you and me
Oh yeah

6. Save You

I Can Tell
I Can Tell
How much You hate This
Deep Down Inside
You Know It’s Killing Me
I Can Call, Wish You Well
And Try To Change This
But Nothing I Can Say
Would Change Anything

Where Were My Senses
I Left Them All Behind
Why Did I Turn Away

I Wish I Could Save You
I Wish I Could Say To You
I’m Not Going Nowhere
I Wish I Could Say To You
It’s Gonna Be Alright
It’s Gonna Be Alright

I Didn’t Mean
Didn’t Mean
To Leave You Stranded
Lent Away Cause I
Didn’t Want To Face The Truth

Reaching Out
Reach For Me
Empty Handed
You Don’t Know if I Care
You’re Trying To Find The Proof

There Were Times I’d Wonder
Could I Have Eased Your Pain
Why Did I Turn Away

We Can Pretend Nothings Changed
Pretend It’s All The Same
And There Will Be No Pain
Tonight
It’s Gonna Be Alright

7. If No one wants to listen

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there’s enough you might drown?

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one’s left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you, for what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There’s no telling what you find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
It’s screaming every step, “Just stay here?

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you’ve been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn’t have to face down your own hate

8. Hear Me

You gotta be out there You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I’m waiting
‘Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I’m hopin’ my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I’m cryin’ out
I’m ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I’m lost inside the crowd
It’s getting loud
I need you to see
I’m screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me
I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I’m not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

I’m restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I’m lost in my thoughts
And baby I’ve fought
For all that I’ve got
Can you hear me?

9. Don’t let me stop you

I used to be a little bit shy, I kept my deepest feelings inside
Speaking up to you about my emotions has always been hard
But this just can’t wait, tonight I feel a little bit brave
So I won’t let one more day pass without you explaining what we are

This is gonna sound kind of silly but I couldn’t help but notice
The last time you kissed me you kept both eyes open
Baby can you tell me what does that mean?
If you’re looking over your shoulder then you don’t need to be with me
And I don’t need to hold on

Don’t let me stop you from doing what you wanna do
You don’t wanna stick, trust me it’s cool, take no chance, get over you
No, no don’t let me stop you, if you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don’t pretend that you’re into me if it ain’t true
No don’t let me stop you

I’m out of things I can take, gotta high threshold for pain
Let’s get one thing straight I’m not down to share you with anyone
If that’s not what you’re looking for, nice knowing you but there’s the door
‘Cause I know I can find someone who give me what I want

Even if I end up broken hearted I won’t lie
I don’t wanna hear goodbye but either way I’ll be alright

10. Already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would’ve worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hold you, now I can’t stop

I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I’m already gone, already gone
You can’t make it feel right when you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone, already gone
There’s no moving on so I’m already gone

11. Never Again

I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
You think of me

I would never wish bad things
But I don’t wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words?

I never read your letter
‘Cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all okay

Does it hurt
To know I’ll never be there?
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere

It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know

You knew
Exactly what you would do
Don’t say
You simply lost your way

She may believe you
But I never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute

Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he’s through with you
And he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn’t say it right to my face
Well give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never

Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never

12. Gone

What you see’s not what you get
With you there’s just no measurement
No way to tell what’s real from what isn’t there
Your eyes they sparkle
That’s all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don’t care

You know you did it
I’m gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There’s no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I’ve finally moved on
I’m already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you’re broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn’t cut it, babe
Take the hit and walk away
‘Cause I’m gone
Doesn’t matter what you do
It’s what you did that’s hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I’m gone

What you see’s not what you get
What you see’s not what you get

13. Behind these hazel eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin’ could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No, I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside
Anymore

14. Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I’d try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I loved

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging ’round revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye

15. Since U Been Gone

Here’s the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you’ve been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn’t long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you’ve been gone

And all you’d ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That’s all you’d ever hear me say

But since you’ve been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you’ve been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can’t take it
Again and again and again and again

16. Low

Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low

No I don’t need your number
There’s nothing left to say
Except I never thought it’d hurt this much to be saved
My friends are outside waiting
I’ve gotta go

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can’t say that
Here’s to show
For all the time I loved you so…

17. I hate myself

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room

I have myself to blame
For the state I’m in today
And now dying, doesn’t seem so cruel
And oh, I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know anyway, anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I’m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he’s not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you’re happy now
‘Cause every time I think of her with you
It’s killing me
Inside, and now I dread each day
Knowing that I can’t be saved
From the loneliness of living without you
And, oh, I don’t know what to do
Not sure that I’ll pull through, I wish you knew

What do you say when every thing’s said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won’t ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

18. Trouble

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can’t deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It’ll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It’s stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder, but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin’ and I keep on fallin’
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin’ in the pourin’ rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

19. My life would suck without you

Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again

‘Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I’m nothing without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

20. Long Shot

I felt it
The wire touched my neck and
Then someone pulled it tighter
I never saw it coming
I started to black out and
Then someone said good morning
I took it as a warning
I should have seen it coming
So now I’ll take a chance on
This thing we may have started
Intentional or not I
Dont think we saw it coming
It’s all adding up to something
That asks for some involvement
That asks for our commitment
I think I see it coming
If we step out of that limb

My heart beat, beats me senselessly
Why’s everything got to be so intense with me?
Im trying to handle all this unpredictability
In all probability

It’s a long shot but I say why not
If I say forget it I know that I’ll regret it
It’s a long shot just to beat these odds
The chance is we won’t make it
But I know if I don’t take it
There’s no chance
Cause you’re the best I got
So take the long shot

I realize that there is all this doubting
That we’re both scared about but
Well never see them coming
Throw caution to the wind and
Well see which way it’s blowing
And to this pulling on
We’ll never see it coming
Until it’s much to close to stop

Oh I waited for fact to come of fiction
And you fit my description
I never saw you coming
But we’ll make it even though

21. All I ever wanted

Tear up the photographs, but yesterday won’t let go
Every day, every day, every minute
Here comes the emptiness, just can’t be lonely you know
Every day, every day, hey, hey

This second chancin’s really getting me down
You give and takin’ everything I dreamed about
It’s time you let me know, let me know, just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every law reveals the truth
Baby ’cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was you

I’d rather walk alone, don’t wanna chase you around
Every day, every day, every minute
I fall a thousand times for I let you drag me down
Every day, every day, hey, hey

Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling we’ve already been here before
It’s time you let me know, let me know, just let go

Tell me with so many out there why I always turn to you?
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it’s so easy to see that the blame is on me

22. If I can’t have you

Hearts break too fast when they’re sentimental
Won’t stay won’t last when it’s love at first sight
So why are my convictions blinded by your spotlight
Can’t breathe can’t sleep with some medication
I’ll kiss goodbye to my reservations
I know there’s other fish out in the sea
Not for me
I want you

If I can’t have you then I don’t want anyone
If I can’t have you then all the damage has been done baby
You can break these rules if you wanna have some fun
Think of all the love that you will lose if I can’t have you

Heartbeat cold sweat thoughts slipping under
Can’t fight no threat cause there’s just no use
One look, no hesitation
I’m slipping into you
Forgive these eyes these lips you’re tasting
No time to waste on an invitation
My shame my self control has suffered enough
Everybody wants to be loved

I haven’t seen the best that love has had to offer
They say perfection’s always right around the corner
Could be true
But if I can’t have you…

23. Beautiful disaster

He drowns in his dreams, an exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems and more Heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him my whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right, Lord, it just ain’t right

Oh, and I don’t know, I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful, he’s such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter
Lord, would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?

He’s magic and myth, as strong as what I believe
And a tragedy with more damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him? So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight, baby, hold me tight

Oh, and I don’t know, I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful, he’s such a beautiful disaster
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/beautiful-disaster-lyrics.html ]
And if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?

I’m longing for love and the logical but he’s only happy hysterical
I’m searching for some kind of miracle, waiting so long, I’ve waited so long
He’s soft to the touch but frayed at the ends he breaks
He’s never enough and still he’s more than I can take

24. Impossible

Just woke up and thought I’d try, try to step across the line
You know that I’ve been thinking ’bout it for a while, yeah
Starting to think it’s time I leave does me good to know I finally feel
Feel this pain, it’s real, it’s possible

You say
Can’t change the winds to say, won’t matter anyway
Can’t reach that far ’cause it’s impossible
Can’t rise above this place, won’t change your mind so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible

Walking by myself I know this lonely road’s becoming my new home
But I don’t stop I just keep moving on, and on
Ain’t no need to dry my eyes, I haven’t cried in quite some time
Everyday I fight it, you know it’s possible

Someone tell me why it’s so hard taking chances?
You draw the line and think that I won’t ask for more, yeah
I will stumble and I’ll make my own mistakes, yeah
But I won’t worry about it anymore, it’s impossible

Can’t change the winds to say, won’t matter anyway
Can’t reach that far ’cause it’s impossible
Can’t rise above this place, won’t change your mind so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible

It’s impossible to you, not impossible to me
Not impossible for me
Can’t rise above this place, won’t change your mind so I pray
Breaking down the walls to the impossible

25. Miss independent

Miss Independent
Miss Self-sufficient
Miss Keep-your-distance

Miss Unafraid
Miss Outta-my-way
Miss Don’t-let-a-man-interfere, no

Miss On-her-own
Miss Almost-grown
Miss Never-let-a-man-help-her-off-her-throne

So, by keeping her heart protected
She?d never ever feel rejected
Little Miss Apprehensive
I said ooh, she fell in love

What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise! It?s time to feel what?s real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No longer need to be defensive
Goodbye, old you, when love is true

Miss Guarded-heart
Miss Play-it-smart
Miss If-you-wanna-use-that-line-you-better-not-start, no

But she miscalculated
She didn?t want to end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing her misconceptions
She went in a new direction
And found inside she felt a connection
She fell in love

When Miss Independent walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to Miss No-longer-afraid?

It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of, “Why can?t that be me?”
I’m so glad I finally see

Since these are mostly love songs, this is totally not for me, I’ve missed songs about death.

First of all, I’m so glad I found out about The Pretty Reckless. I cannot get enough of Taylor Momsen’s voice and of the music her band makes! The ‘Light Me Up’ CD is so good, The lyrics are fine as hell as well. I was planning on choosing top 10 songs, but honestly, every song from this CD is a killer, that’s why I chose to type in all the lyrics and highlight the ones that have made the last few months of my life exceptional. I especially enjoy listening to The Pretty Reckless while on the train I take to visit one of my friends on the weekends.

1. Everybody Wants Something from Me

Take a piece of my life
Take a piece of my soul
Take a piece of my face
So I can never grow old

And take a piece of my world
Take a piece of my heart
Take a piece of my brain
So I can never be smart

Everybody wants to see me down
With my body on the dirty ground
Everybody wants

I want you to abuse me, use me
Shut up and do me
Cause everybody wants something from me
Grab me, stab me
Go on and have me
Cause everybody wants something from me
Everybody wants something from me

Take a drink of my drink
Take a drag on my drag
Take a shot at the good
And take a pill for the bad

Take your momma’s advice
So you can do what is right
Take a knife to the bed
Take a gun to the fight

Everybody wants to see me down
Everybody wants

Break me, take me
C’mon and make me
Cause everybody wants

2. Void and Null

Crimson and clover, sugar and salt
I’m mentally fucked and it’s all your fault

3. Zombie

I’m not listening to you
I am wandering right through existence
With no purpose and no drive
‘Cause in the end we’re all alive, alive

Two thousand years I’ve been awake
Waiting for the day to shake

To all of you who’ve wronged me
I am, I am a zombie
Again, again you want me to fall on my head
I am, I am, I am a zombie
How low, how low, how low will you push me
To go, to go, to go, before I lie, lie down dead

Blow the smoke right off the tube
Kiss my gentle burning bruise
I’m lost in time
And to all the people left behind
You are walking dumb and blind, blind

4. Far From Never

I know I fucked up this time
Just give me one more try
I know you’ve made up your mind
So leave me here behind you

And all the things you said
Made it harder to breathe
When I was lying on the floor
I couldn’t believe you wouldn’t save me
But you blame me

I know I messed with your mind
And wasted all your precious time
The more I try, the more I find that

You cried, the fire just died
It’s gone forever
And the chance to live our lives
It’s gone forever
And where we stand tonight
It’s where we stand tonight
So far from

5. My Medicine

You hurt where you sleep
And you sleep where you lie
Now you’re in deep and
now you’re gonna cry
You got a woman to the left
and a boy to the right
Start to sweat so hold me tight

Somebody mixed my medicine
I don’t know what I’m on
Somebody mixed my medicine
But baby it’s all gone
Somebody mixed my medicine
Somebody’s in my head again
Somebody mixed my medicine again, again

I’ll drink what you leak
And I’ll smoke what you sigh
Straight across the room with a look in your eye
I got a man to his left and a girl to his right
Start to sweat so hold me tight

There’s a tiger in the room
and a baby in the closet
Pour another drink mom
I don’t even want it
Then I turn around and think I see
someone that looks like you

6. Nothing Left to lose

I was only 19, you were 29
It’s just 10 years, but its such a long time
In a heartbeat, I would do it all again

Late night sex, smokin’ cigarettes
I try real hard but I can’t forget
Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again
Now I see that you and me were never meant
Never meant to be now
Now I’m lost somewhere

Lost between Elvis and suicide
Ever since the day we died, well
I’ve got nothing left to lose

After Jesus and Rock N Roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul, well
I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose

Callin’ out sins just to pass the time
My life goes by in the blink of an eye
I know you want me
I was only lookin’ for a friend

7. Factory Girl

I am a factory girl, won’t you pardon me?
See I can make my whole world in a backseat
Lost point, want a joint, show me how to treat a john
Someone save me, save me from what I’m on

Wait a minute girl, can you show me to the party?
I said wait a minute girl, can you show me to the party?
Please let me in through the backdoor
Just let me in through the backdoor, baby
Just let me in through the backdoor, just let me in
Wait a minute girl, can you show me to the party?

I’m waiting for my man and hollywood and vine, so fine
Been done in the alley, son I’m on New York time
Take a look at those red lights, green lights, blowin’ my mind
I’ll show you somethin’ if you show me a good time

8. Since You’re Gone

Since you hide, since you steal
Since you hate everything I feel
Since you cheat, since you lie
Since you don’t wanna try things I wanna try

Since you been gone
My life has moved along
Quite nicely actually

I’ve Got a lot more friends and I don’t have to pretend
Since you’re gone
Since you’re gone

Since you’re not what I want
You can take everything I’ve got
Take the seat, take the drive
If I say I love you, I am a liar

Well meet my lover gin and I don’t have to pretend
Since you’re gone

I’ve been looking for a new direction, anyway
I’ve been looking for my own protection, these days

Now that you’re gone
My life has moved along

9. Panic

You are driving me into manic
You can’t break me out of my habits
I never will be you, I hate that you’re breathing
So leave me alone, I’m an addict

You never will see it my way
I’m draining the light from your day
You’re pushing, you’re pushing, I’m pulling you down

You are driving me into panic
I know that you can’t understand it
I’m constantly sinking, I’m no longer thinking
So leave me alone when I’m frantic

Baby, spare yourself from all my trouble cause
I won’t take your help, I’m not the girl I was
I am too far gone for you to bring me back
Baby, spare yourself

10. Heart

Never wanted to feel
Never wanted you to steal my heart
Never wanted to know
Never wanted to show I’m weak

I’m falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
So I wouldn’t have to feel alone

Always wanted to be
Always wanted you to see my heart
Always wanted your love
Always wanted but never was

11. Where did Jesus Go

I have a tale to tell about a girl whose soul was screwed
She was born into a life with everything to lose
Her father sold her to the trade when she was just a child
She was seventeen and never ever learned to smile

She took a bullet and she blew out her brains
She didn’t say goodbye, she just went away
And now who’s missing her?
I wish she was here
Her name was Angel and she’d had a bad year

So you wanna call me the devil’s advocate
When you don’t know the half of it?
Cause I was raised to believe in miracles
My life is so cold

Where did Jesus go?
He disappeared

What’s the point of screaming out if no one gives a damn?
What’s the point of reaching out if no one lends a hand?
She had passed the point where there was nothing left to give
She was seventeen and never ever learned to live

She needed an angel to love
And no one sent her an angel
She needed an angel to love her
But no one sent her an angel

12.Blender

I used to hate you, But now I love you
Still like a rose Still like a rose
And when you kiss me, I wanna slap you
Sorry it’s lost
I feel like I’ve lost
I chew my nails down, I look at the ground
I am pissed
I am shy
Because you threw me, in a blender
I am hot
I am cold

Do you wanna get to know me
Do you wanna learn to get inside my head
Do you wanna get to touch me
Cause now my ex is officially dead

I don’t lalalala like you
I lalalala love you
I used to hahaha hate you
But now I really fucking love you

I’m feeling stupid, but I won’t tell you
I am blond
I feel dumb
I smile sweetly, in the daytime
Night I’ll turn
Night I’ll turn
I smoke my eyes out, hoping you’ll shout
Be my girlfriend Be my girlfriend
And when you just flirt, I’ll tell you it hurts
I want more I want more

Could you, could you, could you, could you keep a secret
Would you, would you, would you, would you wanna keep it
Wouldn’t, wouldn’t, wouldn’t, wanna make a scandal
But I could get ya, get ya, get ya by the handle
And if ya, if ya, if ya, if ya really feel me
Then you got me, got me, got me thinking maybe
For a minute maybe two but not in public
I’ll make you lalalala lovesick

13. Miss Nothing

I’m miss autonomy, miss nowhere,
I’m at the bottom of me.
I’m miss androgyny, miss don’t care,
What I’ve done to me.

I am misused, like I want it too,
Being not your slave.
Misguided, high minded,
I’m missin the train.

And I don’t know where I’ve been,
And I don’t know what I’m into,
And I don’t know what I’ve done to me.

And as I watch you disappear into the ground,
My one mistake was that I never let you down.
So I’ll waste my time, and I’ll burn my mind,
I miss nothing, I miss everything

I’m miss fortune miss so soon,
I’m like a bottle of pain.
Miss matter, you had her,
now she’s goin’ away.

I’m misused, misconstrued
I don’t need to be saved
Miss slighted, high minded,
I’m sick in (or missin’ for some performances) the rain.

14.Just Tonight

Here we are and I can’t think from all the pills, hey
Start the car and take me home
Here we are and you’re too drunk to hear a word I say
Start the car and take me home

Just tonight I will stay
And we’ll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It’s telling me I’m right
And if I, I am through
And it’s all because of you
Just tonight

Here I am and I can’t seem to see straight
I’m too numb to feel right now
And here I am watching the clock that’s ticking away my time
I’m too numb to feel right now

Do you understand who I am
Do you wanna know
Can you really see through me now
I am about to go

Just tonight I won’t leave
And I’ll lie and you’ll believe
Just tonight I will see
It’s all because of me

15. Superhero

All alone again
searching for something
there’s no one left to save me now
I won’t be afraid
I just thought you’d catch me
but you’re not here to save me now
I’ve had my share of criminals
and you’re no different from them all

I need a superhero
Cause I am just a girl
and I have no one who will go
and save me from this world
come to me you superhero (save me)
cause I am just a girl
I know
cause you’re no superhero

what did I expect
i thought you’d help me
but i was crushed and beaten down
Yeah I’ve had my share of criminals
and you’re no different from them all

I’m hanging on the edge of the world
I’m clutching to a string
and my life is crumbling
down

16. Make Me Wanna Die

Take me, I’m alive
Never was a girl with a wicked mind
But everything looks better
When the sun goes down

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night

Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I’ll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love
Will burn up in the light

And every time
I look inside your eyes
You make me wanna die

Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things
That I shouldn’t know
And there’s a blue moon on the rise

I’ll die for you, my love, my love
I’ll lie for you, my love, my love
(Make me wanna die)

I’ll steal for you, my love, my love
(You make me wanna die)
I’ll die for you, my love, my love
We’ll burn up in the light

17. Blonde Rebellion

Hurry baby and turn the knob
You don’t know you’ve got me til I’m gone
Shut my eyes and count to ten
Do it again, just do it again

Dug my nails in and turned the key
Stupid boy, have you ever really looked at me
Pick my lock and you will see
Come on baby, come on baby

Cause all I am is a blonde rebellion
Won’t hurt you, but I might hurt someone
Break you down ‘til you’re begging me to
Oh oh oh, one two three shout
Woah oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh

You don’t know me til you’ve seen me cry
You don’t own me, you won’t until the day that we die
You don’t notice that I try for you
Only you, it’s only you

Come baby, come baby, come baby, come
Jump baby, jump baby, jump baby, jump
Run baby, run baby, run baby, run
Come baby, come baby, come baby, come

18. Goin Down

There was this boy who tore my heart in two
I had to lay him eight feet underground

I didn’t wanna do it, Father
But I caught him with another woman in the bed I made him
So I put him in a grave
And now there’s no one left around to get me off
When I want it’s a drag

The next day on the television they identified him
By the circumsicion that I made and now I’m on the run
But wait, why did I have to go and kill him
When he was the best I’d ever had?

All I need is someone to save me
Cause I am goin’ down
And what I need is something to save me
Cause God, I’m goin’ down, all the way down

19. You

You don’t want me, no
You don’t need me
Like i want you, oh
Like i need you

And i want you in my life
And i need you in my life

You can’t see me, no
Like i see you
I can’t have you, no
Like you have me

You can’t feel me, no
Like i feel you
I can’t steal you, no
Like you stole me